| 4 in the morning and I'm still waiting.
Dreams in my other hand our future in the other
I look at your picture on my wallet,
a frozen memory. A glimpse of hope.
You had the prettiest smile I had ever seen.
Tugged at my heart strings everytime we were near.
a smile sent from heaven thats what I would say,
Gods gift to a mere mortal like me.
"oh how I love you so"
I lean on the pole and close my eyes.
Remembering how our hands fit perfectly,
your scent that fills me.
Tears fall down my wrinkled face
"I miss you.. I've loved you then, I still do"
Too old to remember my name or where I live
but I still remember yours and the way we used to be.
Come back for me?
these arms are waiting
for you and only you. |
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| Looking through the window on this rainy day
whispering your name over and over. "I'm not done"
Searching for traces of your smile, photographs on the wall..
I can't be who you want to me be please listen. Hiding my face to the world is my only option.
Saving face from all the disgrace I have been through.
Poison through my veins racing through my brain
every time I think of what could have been. Lessons learned..hard earned. Slap in the face.
Will I ever get back the life I used to live?
normal? NO. Exceptional? YES.
I sold my soul to burn in hell forever. Naive, ignorant, crazy, idealistic call me names if you want
I just want this fairy tale to become a reality
that one day you might love me for who I really am.
Stones have been thrown at me. I accepted everything quietly. You cast the last stone. No tears fell from my eyes
no words. Maybe you'll change
I forgave you.
Nothing else matters but you. Will you still love me? After all this.. |
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| How do you stop a heart from beating?
Time from moving too fast, like flowing water.
How will you stop someone from lying constantly?
words that pierce and cut through you like a knife. How do you stop tears from flowing?
Tears that what was meant for someone you held dear.
Tomorrow may never come..Your greatest fear came true.
Lies and maybe's form in your head. Maybe she will, maybe she won't. When the truth is not as pretty as we want it to be.
Agony crashes our party.. we stop and pause "was it me?"
laughters and dreams come to a screeching halt
reality bites. Oh world please be fair! Please be fair I beg.. For once. Dead end. |
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| One. Two. Three. This is where it starts.
Words don't fit inexplicable sensations
run through my veins, temperature rises.
Emptiness cuts like a knife No blood.. I wonder why for a second.
Pain wraps around my body, endless aches.
Identity, sense, heartbeat.. the wind took it away.
Psycho, psycho, psycho!! No rhyme, no reason. BLACKOUT.
Locked up in my own paradise
ocean of tears, bed of nails, poison in my body
nothing left to say. Reduced to tears, soft moans. "Time for your injection sir" |
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| Tick tock tick tock!! time is running out.
Up and about.. mind a rambling
feet a shuffling. Breathing heavy. Heavier.
Last minute requests anyone? Life flashes before my eyes
could have been, should have been.
"I'm sorry, I love you, I love you still"
words I should have said. Darkness comes. Sounds of fear drown my prayers.
Life is short indeed. What seems to be eternal nights
cut short-- split second.
Goodb..yeee. then I died.
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